i lost myself to you Blue…….chapter13

Posted: June 17, 2012 in I Think they are "NOVEL"
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When I headed to the waiting plane in my new clothes and a plastic bag containing my rob I realized I cant board the plane. I never wanted to regret not giving a chance to Caleb. Maffez smiled when I looked at him. Guess he was happy to see me board the plane safely. I held the plastic to my chest more tightly. I stopped then and there. I cant go home, I can never go home. What I will tell my pa? that I was raped? that Sam and Rex were killed in front of my eyes? How I will live in that painful surrounding which constantly will remind me of Rex and Sam? And there’s is Caleb how I can leave the man whom I love just like that?

I turned around and waved at Maffez. He came running. I said “take me back, to your master”. When he heard he went numb. He said “I cant do that. I have to follow his orders. Please go, board the plane”. I started walking towards the exit of the airport. He followed me saying “don’t do this. He will be furious”.

I was outside the airport now and Maffez was saying “there’s still time, go back to your home please”. I adjusted the scarf and covered my head and started to walk. When I felt Maffez is following me I said “don’t worry about your master, I will talk to him. Just take me home”.

When I saw furious Caleb holding the knife to Maffez I felt I made a mistake coming back. I looked at Caleb. He looked worried and angry. What he was angry at? When I faced me I was scared to the core. He was not  happy to see me!!! . When he held my wrist in his hand I wanted to run away from him. I never dreamt that he can be so angry after seeing me. His grip on my wrist was so tight that I thought I will lose my palm. I wanted to ask him the reason for his anger, I wanted to tell me that not to worry about me, I would have anything to put some sense in his head. My words gave up and died in my throat.

I was happy when Calebs father came for my rescue. Caleb still looked angry. Aleeba came to me and saw my wrist. It was paining and had become red. She said “look at this Caleb, what you have done!! You think shes one of your man to bear all that torture?”. Caleb didn’t stay there, He looked at me for the last time and went away. I know it will hours before he shows up.

Caleb’s father was looking at me with curious eyes. I said “forgive me sir for disobeying your command. I cant go home, i don’t have courage to face my pa. I told him about what happened to Sam, rex and me. He looked at me and said “I don’t have any objections for your stay. But this place is not meant for you, this is very dangerous place. Many people die with hunger and Caleb tries his level best to help his people. Even though he uses illegal method I support him because I know there’s no other way to save his people. Soon you will regret your decision of staying”. I said “no sir, please let me stay. I wont bother you in any ways.” I was begging now. My eyes were filled with tears. I know staying with people from different side of world is not easy but do I have any other option? He touched my head with love and said “sure, you can stay. But you have to follow our customs. I wont say you should do namaaz like us 6 time per day but you have to cover your hair”. I said “its fine sir I will follow your customs. Thank you for allowing me to stay”.

Rall came to meet me. His eyes were dancing with joy. Aleeba said “look at my grand-son, he is happy”. She turned towards me and said “wait till he comes back, then you two talk. He will understand”. I looked at Rall who was serious now. Aleeba said come with me, you will be staying with me in my house”.

When Rall came and said that Caleb is back Aleeba said to me “go girl talk to him. He must have calm down”. I looked at Rall and he said “follow me, I will take you to his house”. When we were outside I said “hows he Rall? Is he still angry?” Rall said “you have to find out that, I never talk to him when he is angry”. When we reached Caleb’s house I was scared. I didn’t know what to tell him. Rall knocked his door .Caleb turned around and said “he stays alone, he doesn’t like anybody staying with him”. There was no response. Rall said “you go in he is there. I will come after some time to take you home”. I took my all courage to enter Calebs house. It was very clean. I saw 3 doors adjacent to hall and was confused which one to enter when I saw Caleb standing in the hall. He looked at me with questioning eyes. Second time in a day my words died in my throat. He started to walk towards me and I took few steps back. He stopped and said “so you are scared of me now? Nice, Do you know what you have done coming back here? You ruined your life. This is not some fancy place to spend your summer holiday. This is the reality”. I said “Caleb, I am sorry to disappoint you but I couldn’t go home. I didn’t have the courage to face my dad. I told him about the incident .When I was finished he looked at me and said “you are running away from the reality and hiding here. Your father will be worried about you. Don’t you want to see him?”. I said “I don’t want to go back to my house. If you have any problem with my stay I will go away but I wont go home”. Saying that I started to walk away. Caleb took few steps and blocked my way and said “did I ever say that I have problem with your stay?” With Caleb so near I lost all my sense. I looked in to his caring eyes and smiling face. All I wanted to do was stand there and look at him. My hands itched to touch his cheek. He stopped smiling and was serious now. I looked in to his lips. Ohh I shouldn’t have done that. Those lips were tempting. My heart was beating fast, my hands were itching and my lips were going crazy. I closed my eyes and counted 10. With my little self-control I pushed him away and started to walk. He said “wait, I will walk to you to Aleebas house”. As I didn’t have courage to look at him I kept my back to him and said “its ok, Rall said he will come”. Before he could say anything I walked, I walked with more speed. I wanted to cool down myself. I heard the waves and stared walking towards the sea. I looked at the sea , deep blue water. How it used to come to the shore and wet the sand. I sat there in silence and saw the game. Rex loved playing with water. When we return from sea shore I used to bath him again. He loved water all the time. My mind rolled back with time and I was lost for a while

When Caleb stood there facing me I came to reality. One look at him and I know that he was angry.Rall stood at a distance. I stood and said “what happened? Why are you angry”. He held my shoulder and said “last time I am telling you this, don’t make people worry for you, they have better work”. I said “ I never made anyone worry about me”. With the sea near and memories haunting I couldnt take it anymore, my cheeks were wet with my tears. I said “in fact there’s no one left alive to worry about me other than my pa. May be even he stopped worrying for me thinking I am dead. You don’t worry you will be the last person to be bothered about me”. With that I stared to walk away but I couldn’t as he was still holding my shoulder. He loosens his grip but never let it go. I said “let me go Caleb. I am tired, I am dead tired. Please let me go”. He let me go and took few steps and blocked my way and said “next time you take Rall with you wherever you go”. I opened my mouth to answer him but he cut me and said “this is my order, hope you will obey it as you are on my land now”. I looked at him and thought its waste arguing with him. Rall said “come lets go home”.

I walked with the knowledge Caleb still stood there watching my disappearing back. I just wonder I he always like this or only on some occasion

My life on Somalian land will be bad????Caleb is furious about wht?i will never see my pa?

(With my freinds busy with work, i am lone in my pg writing and writing. Such a sad weekend. You see without freinds its boring to spend the weekend)

  1. Marjorie says:

    Hi Sylvia! I have nominated you for a Beautiful Blogger award. Go to http://marjorievasquez.wordpress.com/ to see what you have to do. 🙂


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